Larads

I just realised it's been over a year since I last wrote a journal entry. In the past year I've been in the final year of school and applying for universities, and I can tell you now I am glad to see the back of that process and quite frankly, the school. This combination of work, applications and general illness in the last year but also the importance of everything I've done has been why I've been so quiet and inactive, so sorry to people I haven't talked to in forever! Plus last year in all the holidays I was volunteering or doing work experience, so I didn't even have spare time then. The good news is that I got offers to study Veterinary Medicine (Veterinary Medicine and Veterinary Surgery with Veterinary Medical Sciences, if we're being accurate) (Yes this does mean I'm doing 3 degrees) and despite a horrific exam period due to me becoming very ill to the extent the doctor said I may not be able to sit my exams this year, I got the grades I needed and this month will be starting at uni and be there for the next 5 years. This is something I've wanted to do since I was about 9 and have been working for since, so this means more to me than I think anyone else could ever believe, and I can still hardly believe I will be doing, seeing how much has been against me, in the last couple of years especially. However, this also means that if I was inactive this year, I am now going to be extremely inactive due to the nature of my course and my future career. And the fact my campus is in the middle of the countryside so who knows what the internet is like out there.

Other things that have happened in the past year, not related to animals (which most of my life is), is that I became a Guide leader and a ballet teacher. Despite not getting on with children. And ended up in charge of about 40 of them helping run the school dance show at a major venue in my city for dance and performing arts.  And competed in my first horse show last week and found out milking cows is really fun. Oh wait, that's animals. *facepalm* And got a 2DS just because of Pokemon. And I'm working on a Chandelure plushie, which may or may not ever get finished now, even though I only need to do a couple of the arm things. 

On a slightly negative note, I got taken into hospital last week after having a very bad fall from a horse (in said horse show) and seeing that I am now incapable of doing much other than watch daytime TV and do stuff using my hands, I will have at least one more thing to upload before I move!

Larry

I just realised I have basically been inactive since April... that's  quite a long time for me. xD I've basically had a lot going on in my life recently- getting help for my some issues, work experience, exams, school... it's been busy. And means I've had no time to do anything. 

Well, okay, off dA I have been pretty active and have a tonne of stuff I could upload, but things haven't been too good for me recently, which is kinda the cause of me making lots of fandom stuff for Pokemon and then doing nothing with them. I've recently developed a psychological disorder (I'm not mad or something, but it's the result of me becoming ill as a result of other things happening in my life and it's causing a physical impact on me) and I'm having to battle this now... a couple of you here know what I have already. Yesterday I had a breakdown and people are helping me now due to the fact this happened at my Ranger group, so I should get better. Any schoolpeeps reading this, I'd appreciate if this wasn't talked about...  I know some people at school have noticed the effect of this condition physically on me, but I'd prefer if as few people as possible noticed. But I have some cool stuff to upload now.

On the happier side of life, I got the work placement at the small zoo in my town, which makes me very happy. Last week I went to the harder ballet group, which was a little scary as some of the girls are doing their grade 6 and 7 and classical exams, but it was really fun and this week I was helping to teach...and ended up alone teaching a class of 7-11 year old beginner's ballet because the teacher had to answer an urgent phone call, which was interesting. I also had my hair cut... 6-7 inches off. It feels weird now.

Well, hopefully things should be happier soon.

Larry.

Ha, so, I haven't written a journal for the past couple of weeks because I've been rather down and stressed and wanting to throw myself off the library mezzanine, as well as just generally becoming what feels like an apathetic slump with no appetite. I've got all my physics practical exams and English mock in the next week, which everyone is stressing over (well, not the English) and my coursework was due in last Monday, which was stressful. The snow generally messed everything up and getting to school was not fun at all and I've had literally no time to do anything but work so have had no time to do any crafts or anything much and I've been stressing like Hell over my work experience placements. I also now have to get an earlier bus to school, which means leaving the house at just gone 7, so tired.

However, on a different front in terms of work experience, this afternoon I had an interview and I have a month placement on a farm for in the summer. This makes me so happy, as I'm basically not going to have to be at home at all for the whole summer if I get into the uni summer school I applied to too. The ranger who interviewed me obviously wanted to test me, as he mentioned something about death and then we went and stood by three calves stroking them and he told me they're being shot tomorrow because they're bulls; if I'd burst out crying or trying to defend them they probably wouldn't have given me the intensive month, but he seemed impressed with how I handled it as we discussed the shooting. It's gonna be a hard month as it's a 9 hour shift each day and I'm gonna have to get 3 buses plus walking to get there and the same back, but I'm really looking forward to it. Got another interview at the end of the month. *gulps*

Dance has also gotten really good recently. In my ballet class there are three of us who now do different, more advanced exercises to the rest of the class, which is fun. We also got our new contemporary teacher (finally) and the only word that describe him is fabulous and he's great as he's been in and had a load of professional dance companies. He also offered those of us who already have experience with contemporary and ballet technique the chance to audition for his new youth dance company on Saturday, although I have decided not to audition even though he seems to particularly like me. But dear me, ALL my teachers are obsessing over the more experienced of us doing good double pirouettes, and I suck at pirouettes.  

I am now going to retreat back into my little hole of work and stress and more stress and insanity.

Larry.

So, after the past week, I am ready for the knacker's yard. The three exams I did were...scarring, and probably going to have to be resat, and my sleep pattern has been messed up and stuff. But my last exam for next week is Critical Thinking, which I hardly count as a subject.

Today was the dance show, and it went pretty well. I had to be there at half 9 for ballet stagecheck and left after the show at about half 6, so it was a long day, but our holding room was one of the Birmingham Royal Ballet dance studios, so there was a piano and barres and stuff to amuse the two of us who didn't leave. It was all a bit hectic as yesterday I had to resew my dress for modern (I finished it this morning) and a bit of the dance was changed for that so that I was at the front so people could copy me. *facepalm* But overally, it was okay, although I don't think it was the best version I'd personally done for both dances.Although I was very amused because when I came out my parents were like "I thought you were in two dances? You only did one." They basically couldn't recognise me at all with my hair done up and in dance stuff and makeup and only recognised me for Modern because of my dress. But having basically used half a can of hairspray and gel to keep my hair in place (the amount of hair I have proved to be a problem) I don't think my hair will ever recover. Right now all I wanna do is sleep.

So, Pokemon X and Y. Anyone got any opinions on it? Anyone actually got a 3DS to play it on?

Also, Danielle Corsetto is writing the new Adventure Time graphic novels. Danielle writes and draws Girls With Slingshots, one of my favourite webcomics ever (which you should all read), so it's gonna be epic.

Just gonna go and like, collapse right now.

Larry.